Company Men

I was lying in bed one night, not in the mood to read but not ready to fall asleep. I entertained the idea of engaging in a little personal fantasy, but no helpful image came to mind and I soon fell asleep. A few weeks later, with a few more nights like that first one, and I am left with two things:

The second plot line of a novel I have been contemplating for awhile, and the realization that my most vivid memories of the person who used to be my go-to guy all seem to involve hugging.

Oh yeah, and a brief flash of the image of Ben Affleck's head on my chest.

2012

I don't usually make new year's resolutions, but I do sort of have some unofficial goals for the year - more self-discipline in general (diet, exercise, scripture study, time management in particular). Engage in some contemplation, but limit waxing nostalgic or dreaming unrealistic dreams. Be aware of my tendency for negativity and look for ways to be more positive and grateful in ways that are more than just sappy status updates.

I know, I know, "experts" say I should set a specific goal and benchmarks for achieving it. But I don't have those kinds of goals right now. Right now, I am just determined that 2012 is going to be the best year I have had in awhile. Why? Because it can't be any worse than 2011. Because I say so. Because it's time.

Catching Up

I haven't posted in awhile because life has been crazy busy. I think things might be evening out a bit finally. Just a few notes to remind me what I have been up to:

Work has been nuts, but in a good way. After my little meltdown, things have sort of worked out. I am busy with things I enjoy doing and that seem to have a purpose, so I am feeling much better about the job situation than I have in some time.

I registered the twins for kindergarten yesterday. People always talk about how they cried when their babies went to school, but I am excited for them. Of course, it means that time is marching on, and I am about to be the parent of a kid in junior high.


I have a couple of personal things to check off my to-do list this weekend, and then my time will be freed up for March to do some things just for fun. Spring break is coming up, and then baseball will start for B and D (L has decided just watching is OK with her). Winter has been very mild, and signs of spring are all around. I am always more hopeful and positive when the sun shines on a regular basis. Hoping that L's schedule and the budget line up with some of the projects I have in mind, wink wink.

I have a new church calling, as expected. Still not sure what to do about it yet, but I think it will be interesting. More to follow on this, I am sure.

The last reason I took time to write today is to settle my thoughts in general. So much has been happening at work, home, in life that I don't seem to have time to stop and think about any one thing for very long. Sometimes writing it down helps. Sometimes writing it down keeps me from saying out loud.