Epiphany

I had a really hard time today. Could NOT stop thinking about Him and it is starting to piss me off. I have started writing about Him several times and scrapped it because I can't seem to organize my thoughts, or I edit myself, trying to be more philosophical about the whole thing. Why not just say what is on my mind? Truth is I could write about Him all day without much trouble. Problem is I keep trying to spin it so that I don't look like a self-centered nut job and I am not buying my own BS.